jillian j. camera

SWOON OR LOOSE

2011-02-13T22:19:00.002-05:00

gride, p.l.f, unmen, power cup, in the shit

2010-05-10T22:09:00.001-04:00

boys drool

2009-10-20T12:16:00.001-04:00

i hate them all: creatures

2009-08-20T19:12:00.001-04:00

happy birthday alex

2009-08-20T18:44:00.002-04:00

yakety yak

2009-07-29T02:33:00.002-04:00

our miserable tragedies have the smell of an office

2009-07-20T14:11:00.004-04:00

and thier blood is the color of

2009-07-20T13:42:00.001-04:00

dirtyinc.net coming soon

hello its me

2009-07-20T11:58:00.000-04:00

go ask the girl with the chewing gum

2009-06-16T03:22:00.004-04:00

jocelynn and me at her and julianna's first birthday party
face paint by my 5 year old cousin maxine

yogurt and tigermilk

2009-06-04T18:41:00.002-04:00

mayflowers

2009-05-24T20:25:00.001-04:00

first 3 of me and my painting and the killer crew shots by leigha mason

wo-hop

2009-05-24T20:17:00.003-04:00

sobbin goblin blood cloud

2009-05-18T01:06:00.001-04:00

MAYFLOWERS (tears in the fence)

2009-05-15T00:18:00.003-04:00

OPENING TODAY 401 BROADWAY AT WALKER AT 7PM

MAYFLOWERS OPENING TODAY

2009-05-15T00:17:00.002-04:00

401 broadway (at walker) opening 7PM

dead & breakfast

2009-05-05T20:12:00.002-04:00

sculpture final

i am going to adopt an intersection and commission this

2009-05-05T19:57:00.001-04:00

http://www.curlet.com/Moon-walk-2002.html

montage video by me

2009-05-01T15:02:00.000-04:00

~~~~~

2009-04-14T23:06:00.003-04:00

hot fudge

2009-04-10T04:05:00.001-04:00

sprinkles on your rainy friday

2009-04-10T00:11:00.004-04:00

for jocelynn and julianna

2009-04-08T03:10:00.002-04:00

bleached and embroidered gemini constellation dolls for my baby twin sisters

cloud juice

2009-04-07T02:40:00.002-04:00

i wanna squeeze you like a nimbus!

newspaper paintings

2009-04-04T22:36:00.004-04:00

bones recovered from the river where fritz haarmann dumped his bodies

installation

A church steeple crumbling in Connecticut during a hurricane

the big dipper

dolphin mass suicide

2009-03-28T03:29:00.001-04:00

http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2008/jun/11/wildlife.conservation1

xerox solar temple shelf

2009-03-27T23:35:00.000-04:00

big dipper

2009-03-27T23:23:00.001-04:00

3d drawing 09

grey wolf and charles manson bffe

2009-03-24T11:35:00.003-04:00

the tong

2009-03-23T03:10:00.000-04:00

a xerox transfer and watercolor

anthony and ralph at their realest

2009-03-23T01:46:00.001-04:00

my favorite picture right now

2009-03-23T01:44:00.000-04:00

new painting

2009-03-23T01:42:00.000-04:00

forest park, queens

2009-03-01T14:16:00.002-05:00

photos by joshua bartky www.boydivision.com

homeage: a bathroom installation

2009-02-26T01:52:00.003-05:00

during clean-up

happy valentines day

2009-02-14T17:17:00.003-05:00

that printer used to be on that chair but now it's not because batman likes to ransack my apartment when i'm out

a box i made today

2009-02-13T00:45:00.000-05:00

theres nothing in there

the artist formally known as prints

2009-02-12T21:50:00.001-05:00

letterpress
lino cut
monotype

mama don't let your children grow up to be printers

2009-02-11T00:08:00.000-05:00

all my friends were born on the same day

2009-01-26T02:29:00.000-05:00

what me and liz did

2009-01-09T03:27:00.000-05:00

this
then this
and then this
thats a drawing of me and liz as vampires by me and liz as people for josh's zine

appropriate

2009-01-03T00:23:00.000-05:00

the patron saint of lost causes

http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39

2008-12-31T01:02:00.000-05:00

http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39
http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39
http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39
http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39
http://www.myspace.com/sobbin39goblin39

my aura

2008-12-30T00:00:00.000-05:00

Just found this on my bookshelf. I think I was around 16.

Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.
Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.
Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.
Orange Red: Confidence, creative power

steven seagull

2008-12-22T01:00:00.000-05:00

i did this

2008-12-06T00:31:00.001-05:00

me and batty in nj

2008-12-04T00:37:00.001-05:00

hes screaming

a conversation with my dad

2008-12-04T00:30:00.000-05:00

me- "i'm eating breakfast"
dad- "is it SOUP?!"

now i get it

i love him like a rock

2008-11-21T02:02:00.000-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9Czyfn06r0

alone

2008-11-17T00:58:00.001-05:00

none of my friends come on here anymore

i'm talking to no one

i'm talking to myself

i don't want to go to sleep because i'm afraid my overall positive state of mind will not be with me when i wake

i feel so good right now

goodnight self

skip

2008-11-16T18:05:00.000-05:00

stones, school, and to my lou

(photo: vicen akina)

not a suggestion

2008-11-12T21:53:00.000-05:00

an executive decision

2008-11-12T19:38:00.000-05:00

watching the
with lauren beer and pringles > drawing at grand central

My First Installation

2008-10-27T19:05:00.000-04:00

last week

2008-10-20T00:11:00.000-04:00

burlesque week 2

male model 1

male model 2

wax castings (2 of 6 of what has to be 20)

i found my camera

2008-10-16T01:06:00.000-04:00

2nd day of painting still life

1st day of painting still life

weird eggs

my favorite wall

hitler's office

burlesque

torso

this came in the mail today

2008-10-14T23:34:00.000-04:00

reminisce- knyfe hyts at market hotel in like, april?

2008-10-10T03:57:00.000-04:00

DON'T BE SHY

2008-10-02T00:45:00.000-04:00

Open Submissions

Showpaper is a non-for-profit organization committed to establishing a greater network of emerging young artists and musicians throughout the tri-state area. The publication is a print only, bi-monthly, one page newsprint that lists over 300 all ages music events on one side and a full color art piece on the other. We are independently run and advertising free. And we want to you to contribute to our paper.

The open submission process will be ongoing, with an artist who submits through this request selected for the paper every sixth issue. We will release a call for work four times per year. If your work is not chosen for the paper during this time, artists must re-submit during the next open submission process. Although all work will be accepted by the publication as it always has, you will have a greater chance of selection by submitting work within the parameters listed below:

-Make use of the full page, keeping in mind the quarter fold, large scale format of the paper.
-Bright, colorful, busy, dynamic, geometric pieces look awesome on newsprint.
-Send multiple works, no more than 3 however, so that we can view a body of work rather than a singular piece.
-Submit a brief artist bio explaining your work.
-All components of this "portfolio" must be sent cohesively via email titled "art submission". No multiple emails.
-We will contact you directly if we have selected your work for the paper, so there is no need to submit hi res images at this time, but keep in mind our specifications (21.5 by 15.5, no bleed,TIF, 300 dpi) when preparing your materials.

These guidelines are meant to allow us to learn about each artist to the best of our ability, thus allowing the paper to better function as a committed platform for emerging artists to first show their work within the greater New York area. As Showpaper is first and foremost dedicated to serving our community, we are incredibly excited to view and present the work of the talented, intelligent, hardworking people who surround us on a day to day basis.

Deadline: Sunday, October 19th 2008

pass it on

quadruple-teamed

2008-09-28T18:04:00.000-04:00

four of us worked this life size scale water clay of a live model

for mommy

2008-09-28T02:19:00.000-04:00

greyscale oil on found wood of harmony korine photo

gouache on found wood of trains

dead tired

2008-09-17T22:51:00.000-04:00

featuring batman<3

yeah and

2008-09-16T22:03:00.000-04:00

than you

im so

2008-09-16T20:30:00.001-04:00

hell cool yea

2008-09-14T22:01:00.000-04:00

I'm so motherfucking divine
I sit on God's right hand
I am he who am who is

use trucks

2008-09-13T01:46:00.001-04:00

brooklyn ny 2007

'mater operator

2008-08-01T16:08:00.000-04:00

hot ash

2008-08-01T15:56:00.001-04:00

1XTRASEET

2008-07-31T02:21:00.000-04:00

sunday

join or die

2008-07-28T01:01:00.000-04:00

fresh digs

2008-05-06T19:55:00.000-04:00

living in harmony

2008-05-04T02:07:00.000-04:00

please, do yourself a favor and see mister lonely if you have not yet
maybe it was fact that it was at 1045 and i was still somewhat hung over, or it was the mist wind and lighting, or maybe it had something to do with harmony prefacing the viewing in his enchanting humbling glory discussing old dirty bastard and clint eastwood but this was one of the most beautiful moving movies i have seen in a long time. and i think i could make up any number amount of excuses for why it was so good, but you can too when you see it and then we can share the possibilities- get back to me thanks love you

archive graveyard

2008-05-01T23:56:00.000-04:00

ya dude
composition
i have to start taking better pictures
carol lee portaits

sleep out

2008-04-30T14:37:00.001-04:00

homelessness is not a crime. housing is a human right.
7pm to 7am at the corner of 13th and 5th

Monster Friends

2008-04-30T12:05:00.000-04:00

designs for a 6 page children's book using devendra banhart's drawings from smokey rolls down thunder canyon

knyfe htys

2008-04-30T12:02:00.001-04:00

start-up disc is bringin me down

2008-04-28T16:08:00.000-04:00

comp's full and external hard drive is shot so I'm going to post some pics in an archival fashion:
this is some work from last semester

portraits of sarah

based on the city of tar from fando and lis

skins

dip sip munch

2008-04-04T01:54:00.000-04:00

those shits just look smart
http://angrytoxicologist.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/06/frootloopsstraws.jpg

market hotel

2008-04-04T00:45:00.000-04:00

or is it the harket motel?
Aa/Knyfe Hyts/Dan Deacon

why i am going to puke

2008-02-10T22:55:00.000-05:00

1. i forgot the coffee i was icing in the fridge has alcohol in it
2. i am out of cigarettes and am smoking stale butts from the ashtray
3. i still have a 5 page paper to write
4. i still have a drawing to finish
5. this awful child bite song is lasting forever
6. but i am too lazy to get up to change it

I'd dan (well) rather be here than anywhere else

2007-10-12T23:36:00.000-04:00

I just transfered all my blogs below so now i can keep them all in one place, forever. and i'll show my children when they are young and then print them all copies before i die and have them leatherbound. they will cry because they will have forgotten and then will remember and then show their children so they could get an idea of their gammy even though they may not get to know her as well based on time restraints but on my deathbed in my living room when they come to visit i will be able to tell that we have a real understanding of one another. "I am so excitied for the rest of my life right now" I said this today and didn't even realise it until it came out. charlie understood

August 27, 2007

2007-10-12T23:35:00.000-04:00

today and the following four days will, i believe, be the most mysterious of my life to date. i can't put my self there i cannot see myself walking away from this computer to go do my laundry that so desperatly needs to be done to go to the beach to baby sit kaya to wake up in new york tomorrow to go to orientation/ it can't be done. whatever the chances what're the chances? water the chances. we'll talk, i'm sure.

May 16, 2007

2007-10-12T23:34:00.002-04:00

some suffixes are useless and problematic. You are not spiritual; you are spirit. Do not practice to be religious, but religion. Mysteries exist but nothing is mysterious, it's just pointing out it's lack of attention. and your lack of span of such so fuckin pay some. everything you see is for you! to take or to leave for others to enjoy, consequences are fleeting and sharing is holy. you can't go wrong, errors are a fabrication! there are no takes or retakes or mistakes. if you're doin it then you're doin it right

April 28, 2007

2007-10-12T23:34:00.001-04:00

young blood old soul

sometime throughout the day i heard these thoughts out loud

"i hate meat cuz i love animals, i hate milk cuz i love cows, i hate my pops cuz i love my moms"

I forget how judgemental people are, myself included. from now on i am going to try to apply a reason for everything i feel. not that its needed but i think it's telling to say the least. off to a good start. I LOVE YOU CAUSE I WONNA

April 01, 2007

2007-10-12T23:33:00.000-04:00

shimmy yam shimmy yay now

books don't make you skinny. and reading about diets isn't the same thing and i am going to smoke enough cigarettes to make a car out of ash and drive you far far away from me. as far away from me as you've made me feel from myself, or everything i relate myself to. like my house. but people (a person) can't "make" people (a person) do anything i suppose. nothing can be made, nor destroyed as we all know. but until recently i had taken that for granted. kind of, or exactally, like in brave new world when they try teaching the kids things in their sleep- to where they can recite the information but not be questioned about it. the other day it really racked my brain and left a hole in the wall and a table overturned. i'm trying to clean things up. if matter cannot be created or destroyed neither can anything that matters. relationships certainly cannot be destroyed and if we believe that we are all from the same batter, as i do, they cannot be created either... we are born related to eachother. it just depends on when we decide to pick back up. i am going to start now, i entered an apartment last night where i felt i had been before. not because i had taken the virtual tour on hotels.com but almost. a girl beaded jewlery and kids experimented on a keyboard, some painted and pasteled and i smoked a bowl. i am going to finish up what needs to be finished and leave the rest for my ghost. she can clean my room and make apologies, i'll take care of the now. i hope beezwax washes out easily.

March 18, 2007

2007-10-12T23:32:00.002-04:00

i don't know but

mama said knock you out

someone plug the hole in my aggression dam, please

March 13, 2007

2007-10-12T23:32:00.001-04:00

i often confuse traits of babies and puppies. like i'll pet an infant or coo at a pup, but it doesn't really matter because i have such respect for both of them i almost feel its fitting. at times when i feel my best i feel like a child. "i am not a child no i am much younger than that" i just love studing kids. it's like they're always on drugs (for lack of a better explanation). you see them running their faces through racks of clothes and rubbing and touching everything. this often inspires me which often inspires parents to pull their children away from me. my children will change the world. or maybe thats my dog.

March 12, 2007

2007-10-12T23:30:00.000-04:00

thats your problem fuck you

everything is enjoyable in some respect. we create gods to destroy mystery while forgetting or disregaurding that that is impossible. we had a crime problem so we solved it with cops. now we have a cop problem. matter cannot be created or destroyed and neither can i. or you. you matter to me

February 19, 2007

2007-10-12T23:29:00.000-04:00

softer than my face would suggest

i took my bandages off today and it was highly anticlimactic. a fucking scab. sasha dug it though. she licked it like an ice cream cone and although it didn't feel particularly pleasent it was the best thing about my day. it's just so wild how well aquipt we are, as animals, to make eachother feel "better". like how bad does skin beg to be rubbed? and how easy is it for someone to answer that request with nothing more than what we're born with? and why does it feel so much better from someone else? why are cuts dirty and dogs mouths clean? are these everyday miracles, or have we adapted our needs to fit our limitations of our bodies? i don't know. i'd just as soon say no one knows but i don't even feel qualified enough to comment. i watched 7 episodes of law and order today. maybe i'll stay at a holiday inn express tonight, then you can ask me tomorrow: i'll take you sky diving.

February 06, 2007

2007-10-12T23:28:00.000-04:00

my dog treats me like a queen and is my best friend in the world. i threw llello a house warming party today and she repays me by devoting her life to escaping her new pink prison. i will celebrate by spending my night watching joyride and finishing still life with woodpecker. i'm being ambitious. you are being jealous. stop it. just because i am class individualist! and am doomed to never have my picture taken and keep my soul intact until my dying breath. hold a picture up, guys, and sneak one in with amanda emily liz and chris in the backround, too. heaven on earth.

February 5, 2007

2007-10-12T23:26:00.000-04:00

elected on friday assassinated on saturday

my dad had some dick surgery today and my aunt came i guess for moral support but i really think that if she had a hit list, or even an assassin for a friend, i'd be getting more make-up put on me then i would have ever allowed with a pulse. i'm going to buy a castle tomorrow. with a built-in water bottle. and a wheel; i would dig her a mote had i an aligator. i plan on going to new york tomorrow but it's supposed to be negative 18 degrees so i might bag that, yanno i aint into all that negative shit. maybe ill just huddle in llello's tunnel and watch the science of sleep, maybe with some sweet potato soup. maybe i'll call sarah for some jokes, i don't like lists to go to waste. or much else for that matter, sleep maybe? is that wasteable? i dont believe so. i think being that it itself is an act, and a renewable one at that its impossible for it to ever be a waste. test: food is wasteable because it is an object and not indespencable. eating would be sleeps equivilent i guess but could also be wasted because someone in dire need could better utilize it. mmm well i guess sleep could be wasted on the "not as tired" if there is a common balance of work being done in the world and only a scale number of people can be sleeping at a time- yes, then that would be a waste. but i assure you this sleep that is about to take place in this room, is vital. actually i don't think i'm even awake right now. i hope not becuase this dream would be a lot better than the ones i've been having. fuck. i told you i;ve got important things to purchase tomorrow! i sleep for money! i live for money! giveeeeeeeee if i ever become president i would make money and love synonomous. and god and you. amen.

January 29, 2007

2007-10-12T23:25:00.000-04:00

i'm getting surgery next wednesday and can't get high for a week before hand so if anyone wants to smoke me up... please do so before this thursday

thank you i love you

January 22, 2007

2007-10-12T23:24:00.000-04:00

ife's a grave, dig it

i dont want to fall asleep because i don't want to wake up thismorning. my mouse is looking quite restless; but she gets comfortable.

i used to be so sure

January 01, 2007

2007-10-12T23:23:00.000-04:00

does anyone remember laughter?

new years resolution: don't promise to not do anything

"i'll try anything once" yeah it may sound like a line strictly for late teen early twenties singles to use when introducing themselves on dating shows, such as next which i watched 7 episodes of today. but it's a healthy motto; amanda and i had discussed this once- mentioning how in and around 4th grade when first learning about drugs (which back then i didn't even know about any other than weeed), how we swore never to go near them and how disgusting they were when now we realise its not that big of a deal, and that it can infact enhance ones life. so then who are we to say that anything else we were taught was bad, is? its just what gandhi said about testing theories before agreeing or disagreeing, and every fact is just a theory.. theoretically. because all "reality" in life is based on not dying, staying alive if you will.. but no one even knows what happens when we die.... maybe we should be trying to. maybe thats whay its so easy to die, especially in the beginning of humanity. maybe we are here by accident and "god" created diseases to get us to move on... this isnt my theory or anyones maybe, i'm just making a closing argument. so this year i'm going to do whatever the fuck i want and i look forward to finding out what that is. I AM TIME MAGAZINES PERSON OF THE YEAR... ME! nice to meet you, taint stain.

love in 2007:

skin, breath, paint, family, weed, sasha, borders, nichole, emily, glass, justin, jeans, ink, amanda, sarah, chris, food, fuel, television, steph, books, bruce, liz, bubby, albert, vodka, of montreal, planes, seasons, sean, cigarettes, bob dyaln, moisturiser, communication, mrs. staten, alyssa, shoes, beginnings

December 09, 2006

2007-10-12T23:21:00.000-04:00

am a transexual gay man in a woman's body

i've come to hate things discriminated by sex: colonge, clothes, shoes, bathrooms, face wash, glasses, his and her towels, and now a fucking tv

FINALLY! a tv for both men and women, cause you know we were all sick and fucking tired of not being able to watch a television show with the opposite sex. the bravia, i think it's sony. style and preformance. style for the bitches and preformance for the macho machozzzz, its just so midevil.

so all you mother fuckers that wait for the single girls room when there is an open single boys room in a public place.. evolve already, if anything they should be divided by the nerds who squat and use those pussy seat covers and the people who don't mind a little random indirect human contact. or herpes whatever, but i love you just loosen up

wheres the dolphin bathroom at?

<3333333333333333333333333333

November 19, 2006

2007-10-12T23:19:00.000-04:00

my thoughts have been a little blocked up as of late but they don't make a clr for everything so i'm going to try and let this flow, in the mall at midnight on saturday we spotted a man who had to have been made from the same mold as the dude from babel and the science of sleep. a movie i had anticipated the release of for almost too long when an old friend had sent me a link to the trailer practically a year before it opened in red bank. he had since moved on and not feeling complacent with seeing it with anyone else i went alone. i sat next to the empty spaces for wheelchairs in a seat with no attachments. i huddled my knees wide eyed from start to finish. as i left the theater i dreaded the walk to my car knowing i'd have to drive home when all i wanted to do was think unconditionally. when i got on the parkway instead of drifting to the left lane immediatly my instincts were hindered/ i cruised on the far right with no regaurd for the road. i used to have a problem with having to look at everyones face that passed me on the road, but at the time i forgot my own face, my name.. after all they are merely brief and false advertisements for a soul i had far too much of. my father had always been an aggressive driver, so much so it contributed greatly to my parents divorce. on that ride home as i became what i had hated, an unaware driver i had a revelation: imagine if everyone on the road i had ever snarrled at in my mind for being so careless had just left something as amazing as that movie- or more likely even greater than, i believe road rage is 100% contributed to people being angry that anyone else has something more important on their mind than driving, these people become so jealous and aggrevated that they don't have something more important to tease themselves with and react in outrage instead of finding that niche. between the statistics of death everyday and how many people we see everyday even if only in passing its likely that we see someone on the last day of their life once a week. i've been confusing my dreams with reality so much lately. but i am sure that big daddy makes me cry more than any movie and that lifted will always remind me of sarah and that holding someones hand can cure them and we can turn everything around if we waant to see some butts. i love you and you can never be too good to yourself//////////////////////////////////<3

October 12, 2006

2007-10-12T23:18:00.000-04:00

mondo trasho

happy birthday sarah

October 3, 2006

2007-10-12T23:17:00.000-04:00

i keep typing things and then deleting them and not posting anything, it's funny like you could have known so much more than what i'm telling you now, three times over, but i've deleted them all

WHWYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY??!!!11111

August 24, 2006

2007-10-12T23:14:00.000-04:00

i went to the angelika today to see the movie half nelson at 12:15, i saw quincienera yesterday at chelsea clearview at 2:41. Both were incredible. I cried durring both for a cumulative time of probably two hours. i ate half of a 5 lb grilled veggie soy cheese tofu sour cream burritto after yesterdays (2.5lbs) and and a 1.12lb take out of the hot buffet from garden of eden. I have to leave in 15 minutes to baby-sit baby Elle. She is 14 months old and probably 15lbs. thats like 4 of my lunches over a span of 2 days. though i think she'll be more fun than a pile of regurgetated food. it's raining and i am super psyked. i think i saw someone dead today. he was laying on the ground with saliva all over his face. a black man yelled at him to get up but he didnt respond. i stopped and asked if he needed help and he said the guy just wouldn't get up, but he would. i didn't think so. but he was convienced, enough. i hope it isnt raining when i get home tonight because i was planning on going to the beach. oh that'd be nice.

August 15, 2006

2007-10-12T23:13:00.000-04:00

i'm packing all my shit up now to leave the place i've grown so accustomed to in the past 2 weeks. for the parents of a woman i despise. shes cleaning for them now. shes taking down my pictures and throwning out my old flowers and bottles i had in the window. and i've never been happier that i left my bangs in the sink and blood on the sheets.